I'll Still Dreams of Brighter Days

Hello, it's me. An ordinary girl with her own problems who always tried to smile and cheer up for the other but deep inside I'm bleeding. Sometimes I'm confused with myself, with my life. Not all of the things we wished and what we wanted will happen. And I don't wanna to blame anyone for this destiny. This is my life, my choice, and my destiny...

[Leo D. quote from the movie "Basketball Diaries":]

"You're growing up, and the rain sort of remains on the branches of a tree 

that will someday rule the Earth, and it's good that there is rain. 

It clears the month of your sorry rainbow expressions, 

and it clears the streets of the silent armies, so we can dance."

I'm a kind of person who always tried to keep her sadness alone. I tried not to give up on everything. And I believe that everything is gonna be okay in the end. I didn't wish too much, just wish my life will be happier than before. That's all :)

Back Under The Stars

It's already been 9 months, and we were doing really fine.
Just little bit problems that coming into our life.
I'll never regret to know you as well as right now. You know why?
Cause my life changed when I'm met you and be yours.

It's not easy to survive until right now.
There were many pain, many things that could make me stopped.
But, I had the promise, I won't stop until my dreams come true.
And right now, I'm make it happen :)

They may said anythings about you.
They may hate you, talk the bad things about you, or what.
But I don't care. I won't care.
I'm still on my promise, to love you...
Until the end of time.
Or maybe, until when you're finding someone better than me that could brighter your days and she could make you smile, instead of me :')

If you asked me why I'm really stubborn, and why I'm try to keep you in my life,
go ask yourself :)
Why you can make me really love you?
Why you can make me comfort when I'm on your side?
Why you can always cherish me in every condition?
Why you can be this important for me in my life?
Because honestly, I don't have a reason to love you.
But I do :)

Thanks for healing my past pain.
Thanks because you're really different, you're mature, you really know me, you can understand me, etc.
But most of them all, thanks for loving me too :)


When I come undone, you bring me back again...
Back under the stars, back into your arms <3 font="">

How Does It Feel

I wish I was your only one...

Sometimes, I confused with my mind. I don't know why, or how does it feel. I'm selfish, and it's really me. I won't let anyone else to take my happiness. And I won't let anyone else to take the places in your heart. I make the promises and wishes, and I'm going to make it happen. Yeah, I will try to make it happen.

It's not easy to loving you, I knew, somebody out there might like you and loving you too. But I keep trying, try to survive and hold you as mine. I won't let anyone to take you as theirs. Maybe it sounds too selfish, but I won't let them, am I, huh?

If you ask me, how do I love you this much, I will ask you back. How could you make me to loving you? Honestly, at the time I met you, I never knew that I'll love you this much. But thanks for always make me smiling when you're here and when you're not here ({})

Ordinary but Precious

You may feel nothing, but you're something in my heart and my life. You gave colour into my life. You put all the things right. You completed my life. You're precious, don't worry ;) ~

Many simple things would happen into our life, and we don't know what are they, when they'll come, and how they'll come into our life. Many unexpected things would happen into our life too. Good things or bad things, who knows?

Yeah, you're one of the things unexpected that came into my life, but I'm really glad to met you and know you. You know why? Because I feel like I knew you before, and when I met you, I want to know you better :). And I thought you'll never be mine. But I surprised when you said you like me and you love me :). Je t'aime, Wil  :)

I knew, I'm ordinary, or maybe worse than ordinary. I made a lot of mistakes, I can't make everyone that I love happy, and I know, sometimes you dissapointed with me. I'm really sorry. But I've always try my best. Try to makes and write down our story, so that'll no sadness inside them. I always want to see your smile, it gives me the encourage to survive on this life.

That's not easy to passed the days when you feel rejected and ignored. But you were here next to me, support me, and I know that I can survive. And I'll build my home with you later. The really "home", when the peaceness exist and we'll live happily ever after together :)

Maybe you said that you had nothing and you do nothing. But believe me, that you had many things that no one else had. The important thing is my heart ;;), I believe you'll take care of my heart. You're precious ~

Imakta Family

After passed the written test, interview test, Diksar, and this is Diklan. We're going to Strawberry Camp, Puncak Raya to implement the Diklan. That three days was very amazing, unforgettable moments. I'm so glad to be the part of them :). I feel, we're so close. Like a family...

I am a Mediners, and I'm so glad for it :)

Let's make M for MEDIN !!! :D

Yesterday is our first meeting...

Today is Party Ganjil Imakta 2012. I really want to join. But I can't..

I had survive, I won't quit from Imakta, no matter if my parents and my family disallow me to join the organization.

I'm so happy to be the part of them. Feel like it was a dreaming home. With the tranquility and peaceness. The peoples very kind. I can't leave them :(

If Fairy Tale Was Exist...

Do you know how its feel to get rejected by everyone?
Do you think how its feel, if you must leave all the things that you loved much?
And when you have tried so hard, you must leave all the things that you've tried?

I know it. Yeah, I know it. It's so hurt. The scars isn't as hurt as those damn things.
I believe in happiness, but why? Why I never get the happiness?
The only happiness for me is him. I didn't need someone perfect, or what. What I need is someone who can perfectly complete my life, with all of his strengths or weaknesses.
Is fairy tale exist? I don't know. But I really wish it was exist..
I will break the rules, face the consequence, and face everyone who ignored me. And show them, who I really am.


You're my inspiration, my only strength. I wish you were here, supporting me to face this world. I didn't want to see you sad, that's why I'm lying. I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. I wish everything will be okay. I can't stand a fight with you :(. Someday you'll understand...

Doesn't matter when, it's always a good time then. Doesn't matter where, it's always a good time there ~
Yeah, I believe that. And I wish I will passed my problems. Wish me luck, dear :)

This Is The Beautiful Life ♥

This is the beautiful life, when we can share each other. We could be together as we're now. And I don't want to forget all of those memories. To be with you all is what I desired...

This is our photograph when we play Ice Skate on Ice Rink, Taman Anggrek Mall :)

I want to passed my young life with you all guys. I remember all the times we shared each other, laugh together, smile together. It's all the best things I had until this time...

We're wearing Angry Birds T-Shirt. A weird thing, but I'm so happy to be weird with you all, guys :D

We're smiling together, have fun together. We were meant to be together. As long as we could :)

We're hanging out together, everywhere!! Love you guys. And this is our group girlband. LOL!! ;)

Yup, this is our group boyband. LOL!! They're cool and awesome..

And we're collaborating as you can see...

This is the part of us, FRM. We're as crazy as you can see ;)

We gave suprise to Riki when he celebrate his 18th birthday.

We gave a surprise too for Janice, on her 17th birthday.

Between all of those memories with all of my friends, there were someone special on it ♥


Life is a climb, and when you reach the top, the view is great. The best things of this life is knowing that we're meant to be together, as long as its possible. And soon I hopes that everything will last forever.. All those sweet memories with you ♥

My life becomes brighter when I'm with him. I didn't have a word to describe it, there's too much good time that I spent when I'm around him..


“Remember what things make you special and embrace those because there are so many things that aren’t on the outside that are so important and people find so beautiful.” - Miley Cyrus



For a long time, I've been feeling the pain, misery, and sadness. But you came into my life, and changed everythings. Everything is be better than before. I wish we'll be together until the end of time. Because for me, you're the best things on my life. The precious gift from God. God was amazing! He knew my needs, and He gives me you, that always encourage me. Thanks for being here for me ♥



And that's all the story about my new life on the university. I hopes we'll never forget this time when we're working or until we're old. We gonna remember this time. Love you guys, FRM ♥