Curhat

Gw udah ga inget kapan terakhir gw ngerasain yang namanya kebebasan sebelumnya. Baru belakangan ini setelah gw udah kuliah, terpisah dari orang tua dan adik gw karna jarak, gw baru mulai bisa ngerasain kebebasan lagi. Gw cape dianggep kayak anak kecil terus, gw udah gede, udah kuliah, gw mau lah diperlakukan layaknya orang yang udah dewasa. Gw bisa bedain mana yg bener dan mana yg salah, gw ngerti apa jalan yang gw pilih, meski terkadang emang ga semuanya berjalan mulus. Tp gw pengen dihargain, pengen dikasih kebebasan layaknya orang lain. Layaknya temen-temen gw. Dan soal urusan cinta, suka, benci atau apapun, gw rasa itu wajar-wajar aja, karna gw udah gede, udah ngerti cinta, udah tau apa itu sakit hati, dan gw udah lebih mengerti hidup.

Gw pengen kayak temen temen gw yg laen, yg bisa cerita sama nyokapnya layaknya sahabat, sedangkan gw? Gw ga pernah berani cerita sama nyokap, karna gw tau nantinya gw bakalan diomelin, bakalan disalahin, dll deh. Gw pengen cerita k nyokap, apa aja yang pernah gw jalanin selama ini, seneng sedihnya gw menjadi seorang remaja, tapi gw ga pernah bisa. Gw pengen dipeluk sama nyokap, gw pengen disayang layaknya anak kecil yang mau disayang sama mamanya, gw juga pengen itu semua. Gw bersyukur, dengan sifat mama yg agak keras sama gw, gw ga jadi cewek yg manja, gw bisa jadi cewek yang mandiri, dan gw bukan jadi cewek penakut, tapi pemberani dan emang gw tumbuh menjadi seorang cewek yang bisa dibilang agak tomboy, tapi gw juga pengen dimanja sesekali :'(.

Gw pengen cerita sama mama, tentang orang baru yang gw temuin di kampus, seseorang yang bisa memotivasi gw, yg bisa bikin gw tersenyum, gw pengen berbagi sama mama, pengen minta pendapat mama, pengen curhat, pengen cerita, dsb deh. Tapi gw bingung, nyali gw slalu ciut kalo mau cerita sama mama. Kapan mama bisa jadi open minded? Kapan mama bisa ga terlalu overprotective? Gw emang cewek satu-satunya, gw ngerti kenapa dy ngejaga gw banget, tapi gw pengen punya kehidupan yang sama layaknya temen-temen gw. Bukan berarti gw mau ngikutin jalan sesat, gw cuma butuh pengertian, keterbukaan, itu doang yg gw butuhin....

Welcome to My Life

You may see, that I always smile, look like a strong girl from the outside, but everyone didn't know, who I really am. My life always full of tears, problem, but I keep smiling for the others. I never want the others know about my pain, I'll passed it alone.

I hate to falling in love, because I hate to be fall, and I hate to be hurted more. I want to live without love, but I can't help it. I'm just an ordinary girl, that will always falling in love again and again. Even though I know, that maybe I'll be hurted again.

On the home, I feel it's like on hell, but I can't help it. Too much pressure, overprotected, possesive and many more, I always feel that pain. But I keep being strong, didn't want to give up. I ignore the others, and be a quiet person in the house. I doing my world, playing, gaming, listening to music, designing, singing and many more, just to makes me more comfortable in the house. But I keep quiet, I didn't want to talk. And this is the real me, I may be talkative on the outside, but I really quiet and don't care about anything on the home.

The last things that you must know about me, I'm easily falling in love, but hard to forget it. And my heart was fragile, easily broken. I hopes someday I'll find someone that will love me as the way I am, and accept anything about me. But I know, it'll be someday...

Motivasi Diri : Berani Maju

Hidup itu penuh dengan warna. Ada kalanya kita dapat merasa bahagia, sedih, kesal, kecewa, tetapi semua itu pasti akan kita lalui seiring waktu yang berjalan. Hidup itu bagaikan roda yang terus berputar, berputar tiada henti dan tanpa arah yang menentu. Begitu pula dengan hidup kita, kadang kita akan berada di atas, dan akan juga berada di bawah. Kita akan merasa senang, dan kita juga akan merasakan sebuah kesedihan, semuanya tergantung bagaimana kita menyikapi hidup kita. Bagaimana kita menerima hadiah yang berharga yang telah diberikan oleh Tuhan kepada kita. Selalu berpikir positif adalah hal yang akan menyelamatkan kita dan selalu bersyukur pun akan membuat kita lebih menghargai hidup yang kita punya. Dan selalu tersenyum dalam mencapai semua permasalahan dalam hidup kita, niscaya permasalahan itu akan hilang dengan sendirinya karena ia merasa kita tidak dapat digoyahkan.

Tidak setiap permasalahan dapat kita hadapi, tetapi jangan jadikan permasalahan sebagai alasan diri kita untuk mundur atau hanya bertahan pada keadaan yang ada sekarang ini. "Life must go on", kita harus dapat maju, sekalipun keadaan mencoba membawa kita mundur. Kita harus berani melawan arus dan ombak yang akan menghempaskan diri kita. Berjalanlah, dan majulah seakan tidak ada badai yang menghadang. Beranilah mengambil resiko dan tetap mencoba, jangan menyerah. Menyerah tidak dapat menyelesaikan suatu masalah, tapi menyerah adalah tanda kalau kita benar-benar gagal, tanpa harapan. Lebih baik kita mencoba terlebih dahulu, meski nantinya mungkin kita akan gagal, tetapi kita akan mendapatkan pelajaran yang sangat berharga dari sebuah kegagalan itu. Kegagalan itu akan menjadi guru bagi kita, dan pasti kita akan berhasil dengan belajar dari kegagalan yang sebelumnya.

Mulailah memotivasi diri kita untuk tetap maju, jangan biarkan badai menghalangi langkah kita untuk maju. Tapi tunjukkan pada dunia, kita adalah orang yang memiliki prinsip dan teguh pada pendirian kita ^^

My Life on University

Welcome to my new life, university life! :)

I'm studying accounting at Tarumanagara University Economy Faculty, West Jakarta. Hello anyone, my name is Melisa ^^. I had many wishes, I like to writing some short stories, poem, and many more. I think my talent was on literature I like to singing too, sometimes I like to writing some love quotes that crossed on my mind, and write in on my tumblr. I like to make some postcard with the envelope, poster, and I can edit video and mix music too. I want to learn piano or electric organ maybe, but my mom didn't want me to.

Why I choose accounting program on my study?
For the first time, I hate accounting. Too much numbers, makes me dizzy .__. But my parents want me to be an accountant, it's easy to looking for a job. Even the salary is not much, but I can applied that technic on my future life then. My talent is not on accounting, but I'll try to be success and make my parents proud of me, that's my highest goal :D. I wish I can be as they want me to :(.

Finally, I don't know what I must tell on there. Maybe I want to tell you all about my class on this first level of university. I went to LY Class, I had many classmates that really nice, funny, crazy, but the most of all, I love them all, all of my classmates :). I hopes, we can get best score and we'll graduate on the best score too :D

The last, I want to apologize, if there's a word that's wrong, or what. And my english is very bad. Sorry for that, I'm not good at English.

Just Saying :')

LOL!! It's make me laugh to know how the promise could broke easily. Know that you're not here as i want you to. But you always blame me, like that's all was my fault, like you're innocent. But the truth will tell everyone, who's right. And when you know that, it's too late for you to regret it. That someone could make me smile now.

I didn't want to be selfish. Even I ever be selfish. I never blame you if you can't do like what I want. I never thought you to be anyone else. I love who you are, but you never understand. If I can't be what you want me to, you'll blame me. You'll be silent and I know, you mad at me. I can't do anything, just wait until you don't mad at me.

I didn't want to stuck in past. I want you to learn something. Don't be selfish please. And don't hurt another girls heart and love. Or you'll regret it later...

Precious Gift

I ever don't believe a man
and I ever know, how heartache was so hurt
I think all the man on this world was same
They hurt the woman, and never know when the woman feels very hurted
and they'll leaved the woman

but now, I don't have the reason to thinks like that more
He makes me believed, that he really different from the others
He makes me smile, when I feel so sad
He cheer me up, when I am crying
His smile was precious for me

I don't know why or how
I could believe him in the short time
and I need him everyday and everytime
everytime, I'm gonna miss him

and now, He's mine
and hopes He'll always be mine
maybe I'm so selfish, but that's the truth, I want Him to always be right here beside me
He's give me a shoulder to cry on, when I'm in a very big problem
He support me everytime, and I'll do it back for him too

Thanks God for this precious gift
The present from You, when I feel so hurted
The present from You, when I feel that no one need me here
but everythings has changed, today was a beautiful day
and be with you was a beautiful gift :)

Kasih Sayang TULUS

kali ini, mungkin gw gag nulis tentang puisi" cinta..
kali ini, gw pgn bgd ngeluarinn smua isii hatii gw..

02.10.2010
awalnya, gw cnenx bgd.. bisa ngmpull n jj brg tmn"..
tp smuaa'a gagg brjalan mulus..
cm garaa" ssuatu..
n bqin gw malu sama tmn" gw..
entah napa, u ttepp maksa bwt ikutt..
pdhl, gw dh nolak, n blg jgn ikutt..
tp knapaa u keras kpala bgd iah?

kdg" gw bnun..
gw tw u chaianx m gw..
tp aph gw hrz dprlakukan kaea anakk TK mlu?
yg hrz adh indukk'a kmnaapun gw prgii?

gw udh 15 tahun.. bukan anak umur 3 tahun..
gw pgn skali" bbass..
gw bete tiapp hri cm d hum. d hum.. n d hum..

klo gw ttepp dprlakuiin kaea gnii, samaa ajj u bikin gw supayaa gw ttep kaea anak kecil..
n smpe umur 20th pun, gw gag bakal bisa dewasa klo kaea gnii..

napaa c, skalii ajj u gagg bisa ngrtiin gw?
skalii ajj gagg bisa nglyatt gw bahagiia?

kpn gw bahagiia slamaa ne?
cm wktu gw adh d dekett tmn" gw..

dmnaa gw hrz brnaung klo gw lgii sdih?
cm d tmn" gw..

entah knapa, skalipun gw bncii ataupun sbell m u, tp gw ttep chaianx m u..
gw ttepp bisa netesiin air mataa cm bwt u..

gw butuh kasih sayang yg TULUS..
n gagg brlbihan kaea gnii..

gw harapp, suatu harii u bakall tw ttg ne..
n gw harapp u bisa brubahh..

klo hrii ne adl harii trakhirr, dmnaa u bisa nglyatt gw lgii,
gw harapp u tw xlo gw chaianx m u.. n gw mw u brubah demii kbaikkan u..
klo harii ne, harii trakhirr gw masihh bisa brdirii d sini, msii dpatt brnafass..
1 hal yg gw mw..
U MESTI BRUBAH.. jangann slalu pny pmikiran kaea orgg dlu lgii..