For long time, I have hide this truth..

I'm to fear to say..

I don't know what to says..

The only things that I know, is I'm having you..

Even thought we just be a friends, but it's all makes me smile..

Sometimes I know..

Maybe you'll never be mine
I don't deserved you, you're worth someone more than me...

Never Let Your Sadness Grow Bigger Than Your Happiness

There'll be a time when we could flashback into the past, and learn from our mistakes. Never regret it, but take something to be learned from the past, and you'll be better than now. Live everyday with smiles and you're deserve the happiness.

And when you think you can't pass your sadness, try to smile, pray, hope, and give more what you can, and believe that everything will be alright as you wish. As the time passed by, we'll be wiser than we were yesterday.

Life doesn't always get along as you wish or as you want. Life may suprise you. But remember that you'll never be alone. And your problems won't bigger than your strength.

Cheer up everyday. Smile, and let the happiness comes to your life :)

Life is a Climb

Hello, this is me. The ordinary one who always think that I'm the happiest person in this world. Yes, it's true. I'm the most happiest person, but it when I'm with you.

I know, everything happened because of a reason. People changed, life's turned. I can't help it. I wish that fairytale is really true, but I'm not living in fairyland. I never regret to spending time too much with him. I never regret to loving him. I love the way he smile. I love the way he tried to cheer me up. Those comfortable and mesmerizing eyes who always said "I love you". I love all the things about him.

Wait until tomorrow and I'll be fine

Wait until tomorrow

You'll see that I'm worth waiting for

I'm right here just come on and say it

I try to reason with myself

Just think of all that life could be

If we could only capture what we've seen

(Pulling a Piano from a Pond)

- Cinematic Sunrise-

But the road isn't as clear as we wanted. There's many obstacles that we must through. But you can't survive from those temptation. You choose her and I don't mind. I'll put on a fake smile and put my head high to face the reality as the single survivor.

Then someone came into my life, right after we're broke up. He always listen to my story, he always tried to motivating me. He tried to cheer me up on my worst. And finally he could changes my fake smile into the happiest smile again. Then you blame me for everything, you blame me for the reason why we're broke up and instead of blaming yourself who choose her before we're broke up. You said I'm selfish. Isn't you're selfish too?

If I'm always stuck in the past, I think I won't be as stronger as I am now. Life must go on. I can't turn back time, but memories will lasted forever. I can't forget the pain, but I forgave you and her. Hopes God will bless you both :)

And now here I am, I've been broken but I get stronger than before. I've been on my worst, but God gave me someone to remove my sadness. 

I'll Still Dreams of Brighter Days

Hello, it's me. An ordinary girl with her own problems who always tried to smile and cheer up for the other but deep inside I'm bleeding. Sometimes I'm confused with myself, with my life. Not all of the things we wished and what we wanted will happen. And I don't wanna to blame anyone for this destiny. This is my life, my choice, and my destiny...

[Leo D. quote from the movie "Basketball Diaries":]

"You're growing up, and the rain sort of remains on the branches of a tree 

that will someday rule the Earth, and it's good that there is rain. 

It clears the month of your sorry rainbow expressions, 

and it clears the streets of the silent armies, so we can dance."

I'm a kind of person who always tried to keep her sadness alone. I tried not to give up on everything. And I believe that everything is gonna be okay in the end. I didn't wish too much, just wish my life will be happier than before. That's all :)

Back Under The Stars

It's already been 9 months, and we were doing really fine.
Just little bit problems that coming into our life.
I'll never regret to know you as well as right now. You know why?
Cause my life changed when I'm met you and be yours.

It's not easy to survive until right now.
There were many pain, many things that could make me stopped.
But, I had the promise, I won't stop until my dreams come true.
And right now, I'm make it happen :)

They may said anythings about you.
They may hate you, talk the bad things about you, or what.
But I don't care. I won't care.
I'm still on my promise, to love you...
Until the end of time.
Or maybe, until when you're finding someone better than me that could brighter your days and she could make you smile, instead of me :')

If you asked me why I'm really stubborn, and why I'm try to keep you in my life,
go ask yourself :)
Why you can make me really love you?
Why you can make me comfort when I'm on your side?
Why you can always cherish me in every condition?
Why you can be this important for me in my life?
Because honestly, I don't have a reason to love you.
But I do :)

Thanks for healing my past pain.
Thanks because you're really different, you're mature, you really know me, you can understand me, etc.
But most of them all, thanks for loving me too :)


When I come undone, you bring me back again...
Back under the stars, back into your arms <3 font="">

How Does It Feel

I wish I was your only one...

Sometimes, I confused with my mind. I don't know why, or how does it feel. I'm selfish, and it's really me. I won't let anyone else to take my happiness. And I won't let anyone else to take the places in your heart. I make the promises and wishes, and I'm going to make it happen. Yeah, I will try to make it happen.

It's not easy to loving you, I knew, somebody out there might like you and loving you too. But I keep trying, try to survive and hold you as mine. I won't let anyone to take you as theirs. Maybe it sounds too selfish, but I won't let them, am I, huh?

If you ask me, how do I love you this much, I will ask you back. How could you make me to loving you? Honestly, at the time I met you, I never knew that I'll love you this much. But thanks for always make me smiling when you're here and when you're not here ({})

Ordinary but Precious

You may feel nothing, but you're something in my heart and my life. You gave colour into my life. You put all the things right. You completed my life. You're precious, don't worry ;) ~

Many simple things would happen into our life, and we don't know what are they, when they'll come, and how they'll come into our life. Many unexpected things would happen into our life too. Good things or bad things, who knows?

Yeah, you're one of the things unexpected that came into my life, but I'm really glad to met you and know you. You know why? Because I feel like I knew you before, and when I met you, I want to know you better :). And I thought you'll never be mine. But I surprised when you said you like me and you love me :). Je t'aime, Wil  :)

I knew, I'm ordinary, or maybe worse than ordinary. I made a lot of mistakes, I can't make everyone that I love happy, and I know, sometimes you dissapointed with me. I'm really sorry. But I've always try my best. Try to makes and write down our story, so that'll no sadness inside them. I always want to see your smile, it gives me the encourage to survive on this life.

That's not easy to passed the days when you feel rejected and ignored. But you were here next to me, support me, and I know that I can survive. And I'll build my home with you later. The really "home", when the peaceness exist and we'll live happily ever after together :)

Maybe you said that you had nothing and you do nothing. But believe me, that you had many things that no one else had. The important thing is my heart ;;), I believe you'll take care of my heart. You're precious ~